Hard

I have had three really yucky, difficult days at work in the past three weeks. Simply put, I had more to do than I had time to do it. I'm not alone. Probably every other coworker was in the same position. Trying to cover Christmas needs when understaffed will do that. It's just hard. Hard to do the job you want to do, hard to do the job that makes you and customers feel good when you have too many demands on your time. Yesterday, I was trying to do a really good job on something, taking a little extra time to make sure it turned out correctly, and then still blew it. Not feeling confident in correcting it, I accepted a coworker's offer to try and fix it. He did a great job with a very difficult task. I hope the customer is satisfied with it. But, in the end it was all just so hard because then I was late completing another customer's order and she finally got fed up and left without it finished because she couldn't wait any longer. She was probably as patient as she could be, but I took the brunt of the dissatisfaction when I was trying to fulfill my responsibilities as best as I could. It's just hard. A supervisor is required to take on more responsibility, but right now I feel like I am having to do so much explaining/training that I cannot possibly complete my own commitments. Just tough stuff. I find myself blowing off steam by venting (and yes, complaining) and getting upset at coworkers for not doing things in a manner that lessens my burdens. Ah...the joys and struggles of work.

I'm grateful to have a day off to think through things more calmly.