Muddling

I am muddling through right now. I keep choosing to muddle through even though the alternative (at least in my mind) seems so much better. But, as long as I choose to muddle, then it is apparently what I want. Well, I know it's a bit more complicated than that. It's more that I don't want to put the work in it will take to stop the muddling and start the enjoying. The end result is so much better, but the getting there is not. Hard stuff indeed.

I am grateful that I recognize it's going to take work to get through the muddling. At least I'm facing that reality.

In Her Thoughts

My supervisor surprised me yesterday by affirming that she knows I have gotten the raw end of scheduling for some time. And she said we would find a way to get the evenings free I asked for in a couple of weeks. I had already found a supervisor for two nights, so it was really just finding a way to cover the day that is actually supposed to be my day off. She told me how much she appreciates how willing I am to work or only take a partials days off. It really felt good to hear that. I needed that.

I am grateful for the care and thoughts of others, especially when I need to hear it.