Faith on Friday (and Every Day)

Right now I need to call a company to clarify and request something and I'm not sure I can get myself to do it. Well, I'm pretty sure I'm just going to go ahead with it, but I have that bottomless pit kind of feeling about it because of previous experiences. It is so hard to close things out these days, to get through all the red tape. And it is especially hard to keep a good attitude through it all. I do not want to get mad or frustrated or start crying when it feels hopeless to get something done, but that's what has happened in the past and I have no desire to go there today. So, I'm trying to just have faith that I can do this task today and have good results, that I can have the patience, yet firmness I need to complete it. Here goes...

I'm grateful for...I'm still thinking...

I'm grateful that it's over with. But, I just don't get it. I do all this preparation and I still feel like I'm just being worked over by a well-trained customer service rep--short answers, no emotion, get them in, get them out. What I really needed was the customer complaint/suggestion rep, but I don't think one exists. Not very impressed with this company. Makes me more desirous (again) to be better at my own place of work, so I guess that's a plus.

ETA: Urgh! Well, I wasn't better at work. I struggled. Lack of sleep, frustration with a few different things outside of work, and the scheduling and situation at work all had something to do with it. I recognized it and I kept thinking to myself I can handle this better, but I didn't. So, maybe that was the best I could handle it given the circumstances. I can still learn from it. I can of course get the sleep I need better and I can walk myself through some things better at the beginning of my shift. It's so important to remember the little things when things aren't going right, to control what you can control, so you have all the help you need to control what you can't. Does that make sense?

I really am grateful that I was able to come home and go to sleep and wake up feeling better and knowing that I may have acted rottenly yesterday, but that I am better than that and I will be better today.